Category Archives: LovingJesus

To Be Fully Satisfied

My hearing loss has been impacting my life in a big way recently, as it gradually gets worse. Over the last 2 years I went from scoring a 52% on a word discrimination test, WITH the help of my hearing aids, to just a few weeks ago scoring a 38%. What that means is… communication is HARD, and getting harder. Without hearing aids I’m almost completely deaf, and with them, the strongest available, I still only hear about 38% of what people are saying. I rely on body language, facial expressions, lip reading, and it’s a great deal of work. Some days I feel defeated and end up in tears, exhausted by the effort of trying to decipher the day’s sounds.

But some days… I sit in sweet fellowship with my God and tell him thank you. Thank you for the silence. Because He speaks in the silence, and I love to hear His voice. When all the other voices are fading around me, His whisper has become louder in my life. His words clearer. He has drawn me in closer and revealed himself to me in ways that I may never have known without the experience of my loss. My commitment to him has grown deeper because of it. My dependence on him in even the most average of moments keeps showing me clearly how faithful and good He is. He keeps showing up and showing himself strong for me.

“The eyes of the Lord search the whole earth in order to give strong support to those whose hearts are committed to him.” 2Chronicles 16:9

He truly does seek opportunity to support us when we sincerely desire the strength of his presence. He is faithfully by our side in the midst of every moment, extraordinary, difficult, or mundane. He will never leave us.

One of the hardships of hearing loss is the extreme loneliness that can be felt. Even with hundreds of people surrounding you, and so many conversations in your midst, it is normal with hearing loss to feel alone in the middle of it all. To sit in the midst of family and friends and desperately wish you could be part of their conversation, but no matter how hard you try you just can’t hear enough to figure out what is being said, can be the loneliest feeling. But God whispers loud in those moments and reminds me He is there. I pray for those who I can’t hear, and God’s peace settles over me. The prayer life that God has grown in me is one of the sweet blessings that cause me to thank him for my loss. When I start to feel alone, but turn to him, I find that his presence fully satisfies.

A precious friend recommended a wonderful book to me called He Speaks In The Silence, by Diane Comer. She shares her story of hearing loss, and how through her loss she finds greater intimacy with God. The first half of the book is her unique story, but the second half is both of ours, because it’s mostly about how God shows up, and He is good. Reading her book blessed me! Or rather, reminded me of how I’m blessed!

“The word translated as blessing in the New Testament is derived from the Greek word, makarismos, which means “to be indwelt by God through the Holy Spirit and, therefore, because of His indwelling to be fully satisfied in spite of the afflictions of life.” (Zodhiates, The Complete Word Study Dictionary: New Testament) To be blessed actually means to be fully satisfied. To thrive on the inside even if life is falling apart on the outside. To be so filled with the joy of the Holy Spirit within, that we are able to endure and taste the sweetness of His love even in the midst of bitter reality. Even when it hurts, even when we do not understand.” ~from He Speaks In The Silence, chapter 6.

God is good. ALL the time.

Shared from my heart ~ Stacy

For the Joy Set Before Him

I find comfort in Jesus’ humanity; the frail part of him that prayed to His Father before going to the cross, asking him to “take this cup from me” (Luke 22:42). My own frailty finds me often asking God to take trials away. There is nothing wrong with hoping against trial and suffering, praying for a difficult “cup” to be taken from us.  And yet Jesus did not end his prayer with that plea. He simultaneously maintained his willingness to surrender to His Father’s will, even if it meant drinking that cup; enduring the cross. Endure, by it’s very definition requires suffering.

Endure: to suffer without yielding

Jesus suffered. Willingly. Without yielding. With Joy.

“For the joy set before Him, he endured the cross…” Hebrews 12:2

The experience itself was certainly not an enjoyable one, joy was found in what that experience would accomplish, what was “set before him”. The salvation of mankind brought him great joy and made the cross worth enduring. We are his joy.

I often turn to that reminder when facing a trial in life. Chronic hip pain, hearing loss, trials are certainly not enjoyable experiences. But trials often have great value in our spiritual growth, in the opportunity to see and proclaim God’s faithfulness, in fostering a more intimate relationship with Christ

An intimate relationship with my savior brings me great joy. When life is hard I set Jesus before me, at the forefront of my thoughts, for He is the joy that grants me endurance.

Shared from my heart ~ Stacy

Five Minute Friday – Joy

‘Tis So Sweet

My heart is singing the words of this favorite song… ‘Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus. I’ve often stopped to ponder this line… “how I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er”. Lord, how do I prove you? For He gives wisdom to those who ask.

My life is filled with flaws. Though I want to live righteously, I often fail. My flesh nature is weak. But I trust Jesus. To trust Jesus, means I don’t need to dwell in my shortcomings. I just need to trust that Jesus is enough to make up for them. My failures and weakness are not meant to be hidden away as if they don’t exist, but confessed and displayed so that God’s grace can be seen. For in my failures, and in my weakness, I prove God.

1. to establish the truth or genuineness of,  by evidence
2. to show oneself to have the character or ability expected of one, especially through one’s actions.
I prove his strength not by being strong, but by being weak, and leaning upon His strength.
I prove his love not by deserving love, but by being loved even when I don’t deserve it.
I prove his faithfulness not by living a perfect life, but by trusting him to always uphold me in the midst of an imperfect life.

I prove Him over and over.

God does not require that I get it all right, He just wants me to keep moving forward, trusting Him to lift me when I fall; to know that He will meet me right where I am and fill the gap. There is such a peace in that.

“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.” Isaiah 26:3